Confused Braination

I feel emotionally in touch and emotionally devoid all at once.
How interesting.
I have a new magazine that I like.
It has swear words, but no gossip trash.
I have had bubble tea two days in a row.
I have been exercising.
I wonder whether I should be happy at life.
Or with it.
I wonder why it doesn't come out and play.
We could be best friends, me and life.