I think I need to be patient with myself.

That is a strange revelation. I have never really been patient with myself. And sometimes, that affects other people too.

I stood next to the lighthouse in the windy gray evening and hugged it.
I love lighthouses.

When it hurts, it doesn't mean God isn't working!

Maybe it's just the dreariness of everyone being away and being undermined in church.
Sigh.