same old portal

The portal feels good.
It's the decision of a conscious change-want.
And it's not very often we do that,
Even though we should.

I don't dare to have my luxury.
It seems too good to be true.
but no- human life is full of ups and downs.
So, I guess it's true after all?

I cannot hide my smile
Not from you or anyone else.
I do feel sheepish about that.