Weakness

I know that God is supposed to work Himself out through me.

But what about all the parts of my life where He wants me to be me.
Just so I can live?
What about the fact that Sara cannot be eradicated like chalk
Because the Good Lord allures and is allured in like redress?
You might be able to say
That I cannot remember how to be true.
Because it's... well, painful.

John Donne's sonnet 14 was a really nice poem

I am responsible to be responsible about my welfare.
Because my welfare soon is beginning to matter to others.
Moreover, their welfare matters to me.