I've gone mad.
I'm in denial.
"no la, this is easy, can do."
But it's not.
The dam broke.
It's too painful to break all at once.
So the tears are coming in drips and drabs.
But it hurts so much.
I wish it would hurt all at once and be done.
But my body isn't working like that.
Scrambling, scuffling.
My heart is so so full.
I wish it would spill over so it wouldn't hurt so much.