*-[LoVed BeYoNd LoVeD...BlEsSeD BeYoNd BlEsSeD]`+
I was clearing my letters after devotion tonight, and I just had to come online to blog. Otherwise the words that are written here tonight might never pass the eyes of those it is intended for. And as for me, I am as usual (and also as Rachel reminds me), unashamed and unafraid to pen my feelings and emotions.
I really am loved beyond love and blessed beyond blessed. I can never say that I am unloved, can never say that God has left me behind... can never say that I am abandoned, because there's too much evidence in BLACK AND WHITE for me to deny that my God has sent so many people along my path to just bless me and love me. The amount of mail (snail mail) in my room defies all argument that I am alone. Forever more I know I KNOW that God's good and perfect plan is already in place. He's brought people from all over to just love me. And tonight.. I just want to reply some of the mails I may not have replied, or just bring them up for old time's sake and a good laugh with a warm fuzzy memory.
Charmaine C. You gave me 2 Cor 4: 7-10. I may be hard pressed but not crushed, perplexed but not in despair, persecuted; but not abandoned, struck down but not destroyed. Thank you so much dearie! You took the time to write this card for me when you were busy, remained a faithful friend and truly God uses you more than ever now, I believe!
Vene, your letter sits amongst the others and the color stands out to me. I am so encouraged and warmed by the fact that you've reached out to me.. and I wanna thank you so much for your friendship! You'll always be my Funky Beauuuteeefull friend! And yes, you are one of those people who have really showered me with love ya? I want you to know how much that means to me.
Eno, your fave color. The picture you left me with a year ago still is with me... and the warm friendship with a steady sound head on those shoulders of yours lends itself to be something wonderful. Take care okae, whatever you do? God is going to use you for so much more because he's hand picked you!
Lyanna.. you, yes you! You've brought so much life into my stay at your place, I'm forever grateful! even though I always tell you that you're annoying.. I must say I still love ya heaps ya! You gave me Ps 23, and it means a lot to me, all those notes you made for me. The large one on drawing paper.. the one on the day I left, I've kept them all girl, and I also see a shining light for God in you! Keep growing!
Michelle and Amanda Teo, you always Pm me online, esp you Amanda you sweetie! Thank you so much girls for the encouragement you've been to me just by being there for me, listening to me, talking to me (about whatever it is).. and ya, I won't forget helping with the balloons~ whee! Be good and do well in school ya! Happy Birthday Amanda!
Crystal! For homestaying me... and for listening to me and my rubbish, how I used to cry all the time but you never thought me weird or anything.. ya, how we hang out and do nothing much but it means so much to me ya? Cos we do productive nothingness. hahaaha.
Patsy and Kenneth you two are fantastic~ Just wanna say I was so encouraged when I left for Perth by your letter to me, you gave me prov 3:5-6. You knew how I'd feel being overseas, and you prepared me for it with so much encouragement! Thank you! [if u dun see the stars twinkle at night, it doesn't mean they're not there. They're just hidden behind the clouds and you will surely see them shine again.]
Avvy you lil DiVa! WhOoP! Love ya know? You've always been there for me, and you've always loved me heaps.. remember when we were young, those days were so funny. you were so small and I was such a brat... and guess what? I LOVE YOU TO PIECES COUSIN! And I want to thank you because you've been another one of those people who've really SHOWERED me with love and constant support, you RAWK RAWK RAWK! I know God is going to grow u more in Wesley so stay in there and keep the faith ok? MuAcKeRs.
Rachel Leong, special thanks to you.. and Sandra, cos both of you are so so small.. I've watched you grow up.. chased you around the hawker centre trying to feed you lunch... and ya, the letters you write me encourage me so! Thanks girls, you kept me up when I was down! And for the emails even now, Rachel..
LeUn SoOOok!!!! AahhhH! Do you remember being in Perth when I first started out? And you helped me with calc! I'll never forget that.. you were there to really really really really love me when I needed it! Hope you enjoy your emergency shifts in the wards... hheheeh. And yes, I know you're back in M'sia for CNY so have fun!!!!
Mel Leow.. hehehe. you're funky girlfren~~ haha! Yeah, for the cards you've sent and the love u sent along with them.. I love ya babe! Take care with the workload and the church stuff okae? yup, the LHMC youth ARE growing and God's hand is upon them.. continue in it cos u're gonna see results ya?
DwaYne for the Chrismas card.. hehehe. Thanks for the warmth and encouragement.. It's people like you who make the youth group a place where people feel loved and accepted.. I'll always come away knowing and remembering to love the people around me more. And I know God has great plans for ya. Can see.. haha.
Tai Yee, NickIe, Andy and Uncle Paul! Hahah, for all the birthdays you remembered and the encouragement nickie was to me on the phone when I was in Perth and was so down...love you guys! You send the coolest cards!!
LiQi.. for the Christmas card... yeah babe.. I've grown to love you, know?? and yeah, I cherish the love ya give me although I'm your 'love rival' hahahaha long live eno the lao po. =) Keep shining for him ya?
TIFF! Tiff Lam (or shd I say Lom)! Where is you la??? Somewhere in the states ha? SiGh. well girl, I grew up with ya too! In Wesley, I'll never forget the times we shared.. and thanks for the farewell card which I'll never forget because it's sincerely you! You've got so much for God he's going to honor it ya?
Jean Lin Jie for my Baptism Card with 1 cor 6:11 in it. It means a lot.. and for the flute advice too!
Cheryl Ho.. .haha, thanks dearie for my farewell letter... think u remember how I cried like mad in service.. haha miss u mah! heheehe. You really encouraged me in that letter.. reminded me that there's MORE THEN THIS cos our God is a great God. Thank you so much!!!
Melvin err Melvin.. hhahah. Never forget Sly. Or little melvin ya? he's on my bed.. looks a little dizzy, but very alive. I wanna thank ya for the CONSTANT support you've been, on MSN in person, in letters. The most memorable card was the one on the day I left (the only one la, haha) and u gave it to me with the funny monkey and told me that I was a blessing. Thank you tremendously for the encouragement you ALWAYS are.. yeah, stay in touch with Ms Wong ok?
Daph Daph DaPhNE and ChaD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I LOVE U MUCH MUCH MANY! haha. Yeah, for the wonderful journal and the wise words I won't forget... for the love and acceptance you've showered! Most importantly for the support you've been, the time you've taken out of your busy schedule for me, whether it's skyping, MSNing, SMSing... haha, we'll have many more ice cream on cold stones to come ok? yes I shall be your nanny too! Won't forget God using you in my life to speak to me! Thank you!!
And Joshie~ For the many letters you've written, especially the well worded card that hit the nail on the head when I was down.. yeah... so many things laa.. Be strong in this time of change ok? It's a great thing to have happen even though it may not feel so! haha... yeah, for the enthusiasm you have for Jesus, for your stand and also, for sharing the talents he's given you in guitaring with me!!! YeAh, thank you for being there, for sharing, and for encouraging me! (notice this is in GREEN)
Timmy for the bro you've been, the birthday letter was good fun! Thanks for letting me yell, complain, sing, have fun, rejoice and do silly things with ya! You have God given wisdom, and discernment which he wants to use! Don't want to say too much at this point, except for STARDI ARH! STARDI HARD. Yeah.
Joanne Darling, I'm so glad you're doing well, esp with ZX, hehehehehe. Yeaah... hey babe, keep the faith ya? Wish I could have spent more time with ya in SG. And you know what? I never told you that your creativity and artistic taste is really wonderful! And that you're really humourous, and cute! I love you so much and I'm so glad you're going to church with ZX hehehehe. May you two be richly blessed and better send me a wedding invite if it's God's will ya. No, dun send me one. I want to be bridesmaid!!!!!!
Lydia you babe. This is not sufficent to tell you how much you mean to me and yet I try. Your friendship has been valuable beyond valuable ok! WORDS cannot explain what you mean to me, your love for me poured out to me from God's own store of love! I love you like my own sister and I rejoice in your freedom which I want you to continue to claim ok? Ya, I love to see you growing in the Lord so so much and just rocking on for him! We both know, he's the one! Who reached out and picked us up and out of our iniquity. You're not the only one who'd have died of loneliness at camp. without you there, I would too. I love that automatic knowing of when to get up and go with ya.. it's like a thing the manzai san have, know? for all the time we've spent together, there's so much more to discover. I read your old letter dearie darling, and then I read the recent one... and there's SUCH a difference in you! HuRrAy and ReJoIcE!!!! Yaa, remember our house ok?? We shall call it in our house, hahaha. Still missing you heaps.. Was so so proud when you said that you'd rather be in church than study know.. That God's put such a calling and purpose in your heart! That just makes me all happy and jumpy inside...I love you much many much much...
To my dearest Phishie... I wuv you too!!! You've found me changed this past trip, and I know this to be true, and yet I love you just the same! It doesn't matter what's happened, because this is how our relationship grows and changes to adapt... And if it took that much for us to learn how to better love and understand each other then so be it! I love you! And it's the quirks you have that crack me up and make my day... like blobbus greenus! Your cuteness and hamster ladyness will always remain fond in my heart... and I want to remind you of a red and black letter you wrote to me on foolscap... and you were asking how is it that we were all so close after so long.. that in sec school it was just so easy to adjust and have new friends. Do you remember? Well I asked the same question for a long time, and I found the answer in another letter. It was that "People come along our way but good friends are hard to find. Nevertheless you needn't look, need you, Sara? Because you have the Manzai San." (Paraphrased) and That's so true. I have the Manzai San. You've been so faithful as a friend, Rach. Thanks for being a GREAT friend! And I mean that. I love ya heaps!
And to Mum and Dad, your letters made me cry the most because out of all these wonderful people I know you love me best. You put up with so much in me and you love me anyway. I'll always keep those letters, because your love for me is so simple and pure, yet I cannot imagine loving anyone the way you love me... Parents! You guys are really God's blessing to have, especially in Australia! Hehehe. I know you love me unconditionally and that is God's love to me through you! Love you two!!!
SiGh... that ends the LONG LONG blog.. And if you're not mentioned.. I'm thinking of you right now and feeling bad, so smile ok? (MaNdY~ Jon Ho~DeBs~ Jon Chee~ Shu~Sotong~Caro~CARO!!!!!) hehehe. I love y'all anyway. =) Yaa... not enuf time, not enuf space la.. sowwie...
Oyasumi, it's early in the morning.. *yawn*
I was clearing my letters after devotion tonight, and I just had to come online to blog. Otherwise the words that are written here tonight might never pass the eyes of those it is intended for. And as for me, I am as usual (and also as Rachel reminds me), unashamed and unafraid to pen my feelings and emotions.
I really am loved beyond love and blessed beyond blessed. I can never say that I am unloved, can never say that God has left me behind... can never say that I am abandoned, because there's too much evidence in BLACK AND WHITE for me to deny that my God has sent so many people along my path to just bless me and love me. The amount of mail (snail mail) in my room defies all argument that I am alone. Forever more I know I KNOW that God's good and perfect plan is already in place. He's brought people from all over to just love me. And tonight.. I just want to reply some of the mails I may not have replied, or just bring them up for old time's sake and a good laugh with a warm fuzzy memory.
Charmaine C. You gave me 2 Cor 4: 7-10. I may be hard pressed but not crushed, perplexed but not in despair, persecuted; but not abandoned, struck down but not destroyed. Thank you so much dearie! You took the time to write this card for me when you were busy, remained a faithful friend and truly God uses you more than ever now, I believe!
Vene, your letter sits amongst the others and the color stands out to me. I am so encouraged and warmed by the fact that you've reached out to me.. and I wanna thank you so much for your friendship! You'll always be my Funky Beauuuteeefull friend! And yes, you are one of those people who have really showered me with love ya? I want you to know how much that means to me.
Eno, your fave color. The picture you left me with a year ago still is with me... and the warm friendship with a steady sound head on those shoulders of yours lends itself to be something wonderful. Take care okae, whatever you do? God is going to use you for so much more because he's hand picked you!
Lyanna.. you, yes you! You've brought so much life into my stay at your place, I'm forever grateful! even though I always tell you that you're annoying.. I must say I still love ya heaps ya! You gave me Ps 23, and it means a lot to me, all those notes you made for me. The large one on drawing paper.. the one on the day I left, I've kept them all girl, and I also see a shining light for God in you! Keep growing!
Michelle and Amanda Teo, you always Pm me online, esp you Amanda you sweetie! Thank you so much girls for the encouragement you've been to me just by being there for me, listening to me, talking to me (about whatever it is).. and ya, I won't forget helping with the balloons~ whee! Be good and do well in school ya! Happy Birthday Amanda!
Crystal! For homestaying me... and for listening to me and my rubbish, how I used to cry all the time but you never thought me weird or anything.. ya, how we hang out and do nothing much but it means so much to me ya? Cos we do productive nothingness. hahaaha.
Patsy and Kenneth you two are fantastic~ Just wanna say I was so encouraged when I left for Perth by your letter to me, you gave me prov 3:5-6. You knew how I'd feel being overseas, and you prepared me for it with so much encouragement! Thank you! [if u dun see the stars twinkle at night, it doesn't mean they're not there. They're just hidden behind the clouds and you will surely see them shine again.]
Avvy you lil DiVa! WhOoP! Love ya know? You've always been there for me, and you've always loved me heaps.. remember when we were young, those days were so funny. you were so small and I was such a brat... and guess what? I LOVE YOU TO PIECES COUSIN! And I want to thank you because you've been another one of those people who've really SHOWERED me with love and constant support, you RAWK RAWK RAWK! I know God is going to grow u more in Wesley so stay in there and keep the faith ok? MuAcKeRs.
Rachel Leong, special thanks to you.. and Sandra, cos both of you are so so small.. I've watched you grow up.. chased you around the hawker centre trying to feed you lunch... and ya, the letters you write me encourage me so! Thanks girls, you kept me up when I was down! And for the emails even now, Rachel..
LeUn SoOOok!!!! AahhhH! Do you remember being in Perth when I first started out? And you helped me with calc! I'll never forget that.. you were there to really really really really love me when I needed it! Hope you enjoy your emergency shifts in the wards... hheheeh. And yes, I know you're back in M'sia for CNY so have fun!!!!
Mel Leow.. hehehe. you're funky girlfren~~ haha! Yeah, for the cards you've sent and the love u sent along with them.. I love ya babe! Take care with the workload and the church stuff okae? yup, the LHMC youth ARE growing and God's hand is upon them.. continue in it cos u're gonna see results ya?
DwaYne for the Chrismas card.. hehehe. Thanks for the warmth and encouragement.. It's people like you who make the youth group a place where people feel loved and accepted.. I'll always come away knowing and remembering to love the people around me more. And I know God has great plans for ya. Can see.. haha.
Tai Yee, NickIe, Andy and Uncle Paul! Hahah, for all the birthdays you remembered and the encouragement nickie was to me on the phone when I was in Perth and was so down...love you guys! You send the coolest cards!!
LiQi.. for the Christmas card... yeah babe.. I've grown to love you, know?? and yeah, I cherish the love ya give me although I'm your 'love rival' hahahaha long live eno the lao po. =) Keep shining for him ya?
TIFF! Tiff Lam (or shd I say Lom)! Where is you la??? Somewhere in the states ha? SiGh. well girl, I grew up with ya too! In Wesley, I'll never forget the times we shared.. and thanks for the farewell card which I'll never forget because it's sincerely you! You've got so much for God he's going to honor it ya?
Jean Lin Jie for my Baptism Card with 1 cor 6:11 in it. It means a lot.. and for the flute advice too!
Cheryl Ho.. .haha, thanks dearie for my farewell letter... think u remember how I cried like mad in service.. haha miss u mah! heheehe. You really encouraged me in that letter.. reminded me that there's MORE THEN THIS cos our God is a great God. Thank you so much!!!
Melvin err Melvin.. hhahah. Never forget Sly. Or little melvin ya? he's on my bed.. looks a little dizzy, but very alive. I wanna thank ya for the CONSTANT support you've been, on MSN in person, in letters. The most memorable card was the one on the day I left (the only one la, haha) and u gave it to me with the funny monkey and told me that I was a blessing. Thank you tremendously for the encouragement you ALWAYS are.. yeah, stay in touch with Ms Wong ok?
Daph Daph DaPhNE and ChaD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I LOVE U MUCH MUCH MANY! haha. Yeah, for the wonderful journal and the wise words I won't forget... for the love and acceptance you've showered! Most importantly for the support you've been, the time you've taken out of your busy schedule for me, whether it's skyping, MSNing, SMSing... haha, we'll have many more ice cream on cold stones to come ok? yes I shall be your nanny too! Won't forget God using you in my life to speak to me! Thank you!!
And Joshie~ For the many letters you've written, especially the well worded card that hit the nail on the head when I was down.. yeah... so many things laa.. Be strong in this time of change ok? It's a great thing to have happen even though it may not feel so! haha... yeah, for the enthusiasm you have for Jesus, for your stand and also, for sharing the talents he's given you in guitaring with me!!! YeAh, thank you for being there, for sharing, and for encouraging me! (notice this is in GREEN)
Timmy for the bro you've been, the birthday letter was good fun! Thanks for letting me yell, complain, sing, have fun, rejoice and do silly things with ya! You have God given wisdom, and discernment which he wants to use! Don't want to say too much at this point, except for STARDI ARH! STARDI HARD. Yeah.
Joanne Darling, I'm so glad you're doing well, esp with ZX, hehehehehe. Yeaah... hey babe, keep the faith ya? Wish I could have spent more time with ya in SG. And you know what? I never told you that your creativity and artistic taste is really wonderful! And that you're really humourous, and cute! I love you so much and I'm so glad you're going to church with ZX hehehehe. May you two be richly blessed and better send me a wedding invite if it's God's will ya. No, dun send me one. I want to be bridesmaid!!!!!!
Lydia you babe. This is not sufficent to tell you how much you mean to me and yet I try. Your friendship has been valuable beyond valuable ok! WORDS cannot explain what you mean to me, your love for me poured out to me from God's own store of love! I love you like my own sister and I rejoice in your freedom which I want you to continue to claim ok? Ya, I love to see you growing in the Lord so so much and just rocking on for him! We both know, he's the one! Who reached out and picked us up and out of our iniquity. You're not the only one who'd have died of loneliness at camp. without you there, I would too. I love that automatic knowing of when to get up and go with ya.. it's like a thing the manzai san have, know? for all the time we've spent together, there's so much more to discover. I read your old letter dearie darling, and then I read the recent one... and there's SUCH a difference in you! HuRrAy and ReJoIcE!!!! Yaa, remember our house ok?? We shall call it in our house, hahaha. Still missing you heaps.. Was so so proud when you said that you'd rather be in church than study know.. That God's put such a calling and purpose in your heart! That just makes me all happy and jumpy inside...I love you much many much much...
To my dearest Phishie... I wuv you too!!! You've found me changed this past trip, and I know this to be true, and yet I love you just the same! It doesn't matter what's happened, because this is how our relationship grows and changes to adapt... And if it took that much for us to learn how to better love and understand each other then so be it! I love you! And it's the quirks you have that crack me up and make my day... like blobbus greenus! Your cuteness and hamster ladyness will always remain fond in my heart... and I want to remind you of a red and black letter you wrote to me on foolscap... and you were asking how is it that we were all so close after so long.. that in sec school it was just so easy to adjust and have new friends. Do you remember? Well I asked the same question for a long time, and I found the answer in another letter. It was that "People come along our way but good friends are hard to find. Nevertheless you needn't look, need you, Sara? Because you have the Manzai San." (Paraphrased) and That's so true. I have the Manzai San. You've been so faithful as a friend, Rach. Thanks for being a GREAT friend! And I mean that. I love ya heaps!
And to Mum and Dad, your letters made me cry the most because out of all these wonderful people I know you love me best. You put up with so much in me and you love me anyway. I'll always keep those letters, because your love for me is so simple and pure, yet I cannot imagine loving anyone the way you love me... Parents! You guys are really God's blessing to have, especially in Australia! Hehehe. I know you love me unconditionally and that is God's love to me through you! Love you two!!!
SiGh... that ends the LONG LONG blog.. And if you're not mentioned.. I'm thinking of you right now and feeling bad, so smile ok? (MaNdY~ Jon Ho~DeBs~ Jon Chee~ Shu~Sotong~Caro~CARO!!!!!) hehehe. I love y'all anyway. =) Yaa... not enuf time, not enuf space la.. sowwie...
Oyasumi, it's early in the morning.. *yawn*
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