Thursday, December 24, 2009

In the end,
people are people.
God is God.
I have taken comfort that repentance is an efficient program-
God does not have "cooling down" periods.


It is a quiet and lonely Christmas- except for the basic necessities of family and fiance. Lydia has gotten engaged and I was kicking myself that I could not be there! I should have just taken a holiday. sigh. But I am really happy and proud of her- I am glad that we can share wedding-y things now!


There is something, as always, about Christmas, that is pristine. It looks like a white, pure glittery feeling, sounds like a crowd with a choir, and smells like fresh music with breakfast and teabags in the bin.


I feel old, a little caustic, a little better for wear, a little worse for it.


I am grateful that life is worth living, not because of anything or anyone, but because I am a product of the infinite mind of the Living God. Thanks be to Him, my intimate friend and master, and at Christmas I feel somehow closer in a special way, because I remember He was born on this earth for a short time to know what men know. He will never shake his head at my antics.


Christmas can be horrible, and Christmas can be quiet. I think I prefer my life here now. :)