YiPpiEe! I finally finished that English thing that was killing me!!! YAY! I had a bad dream about it last night. That was so so bad! I dreamt that the teacher picked me to go first for the presentation and I didn't have anything to present. I got a C for my previous assessment so I can't afford to fail this one. (Which is true) So I pleaded to be let to do it tomorrow, but she said no. And I cried in class- I remember that. And I sat outside class and cried. And I was so mortified whenI woke up. I was like, "Crap! English!" And i got up and spent like 2.5 hours on it! But I still have to make the visual aids, and do some other english crap (which I won't do properly cos there's bio to study for.)

IT'S OVER! Hahaha. Now I have a serious chocolate craving.. It's been going on for the past 3 days, and I've been gorging myself. And I was like, "Am I depressed?" and I discovered that I wasn't. It's so weird. So now I'm taking a walk to buy chocolate. *hugs self* I love myself!

haiz haiz. It's getting warmer now and that's making me think of Singapore. I thought about English when I woke up, and when I washed up I thought about Singapore, and as I ate lunch, I juggled English, Singapore and food, and Now I shall think about Singapore, Biology and how nice the warmth of the sun is!

dum dee dum!

Oh Ya!! LyDiA!!! CONGRATS!! LOVE YA!

RaChEL... I still think someone's blog very cool leii. Ahem. I think he's a really nice guy. and I haven't met him in my life. haha!

*glares**glares some more* *fa nu* *pulls hair* the nice laptop erased my entry! so cool right? now you got nothing nice to read. Lets try to reproduce it.

I found some japanese tongue twisters...

Niwa no niwa ni wa, niwa no niwatori wa niwaka ni wani wo tabeta. In (Mr) Niwa's garden, two chickens suddenly ate a crocodile.

Nomu nara noru na, noru nara nomu na. If you drink don't drive, if you drive don't drink.[from a Japanese police don't-drink-and-drive campaign]

Kamoshika mo shika mo shika da ga, tashika ashika wa shika de wa nai. The Japanese serow (a kind of antelope) and the sika deer are both deer, but certainly the sea lion is not a deer.

haha. Try saying them aloud to yourself. (when you are alone in your own room with no one to wonder at you laughing at yourself.)

Very tired. There was some more, but I dun wanna write it all out again especially if it goes blank on meh again.. -_-"

However, I do get to wear my Yukata soon =)

Jaa, netai desune. Oyasumi!

Man. I went blog surfing with Blogger's new installation: the button that says, [next blog]. I keep coming up with either spanish blogs (shd I surf until I come up with a jap one?) (would be fantastic for learning stuff.) or blogs that debate religion, all of which I have viewed are christian! Why is God so debated?

I guess it's cos people know He's there, but they can't reach Him. I think that's what Tommy Tenney meant in the God chasers when He said that people are hungry for God but we just weren't listening or helping them, cos as Christians we've been far too complacent as well. We've stood in the church going, "God is here" and people come to find him and they fail because we haven't done our job in searching for God... In inviting His manifest presence into our church and our lives. I want more. I want crazy more! Charmaine talks about obsession. That people really can't live without a goal. That being aimless sucks. And I know that's true, because once you run after God and catch a glimpse of Him, you just want to be able to hang on to his cloak.. to run so hard and so far after him, just to feel Him, to KNOW him, not to know ABOUT him. I have a knot in my heart, a knot of dissatisfaction. Of not having enough of God, of wanting more more more.. crazy more. Because HE SATISFIES. And when you've found and tasted of him, you'll find that you don't want anything else. That everything else that used to work for you just doesn't cut it any more. That just spending time with Him can make you cry for joy, literally. That instead of doing the things you usually do, you find yourself starved for Him. For one so great. For one you've never seen. For one who makes you tremble and cry in the twinkle of an eye. For one who loves you so so much you'll never ever be satisfied with anything else. For God and God alone.

And you find yourself bound, addicted, hopelessly in LOVE. And you never want it to end. It's like a tea party in the gazebo, going round and round and round on that merry go round... for some reason, I've seen this in my mind so many times. And I love it. I love the comfort it brings, as well as the challenge. I asked God for passion, and I know it's coming to me, in waves so strong and fast, and I know that if I press on, and press into Him, I'll come to a place where I'll never long again. I'll never lack. If I yield to Him, if I die to myself, I know I'll find something so precious and wonderful that I would be willing to lose sleep over it. I've read about it, I've heard about it, and now I want it for myself. I want it and I want it bad. If this is what you mean by obsession, then yes, I've got one too. Like the rest of the world with its beautiful people in it. But the funny thing with my obsession is that... It's going to last into eternity. And that's really beautiful.

Picture this: In my lightest flowing orange summer dress, in a field with white flowers... wind blowing, leaves flying, just walking effortlessly by myself. Hair that flows and ruffles with the wind but never tangles. Feet that are bare but never tire of walking, Eyes that are always bright. And a joy in the spring of the step. I think that's how I'd describe how I feel right now. =) I'm truly happy.

It's been a while since i shared my heart here. But it's not always prudent to do so on the net. (the implication of the www is very... large?) Also, I haven't been able to pour out myself here recently, because I've become so much more aware of the people who have access to these pages... Nevertheless, I couldn't care less anymore. =) Have a really good night, all you wonderful peeps out there! (yes, even you.)*winkz*

I went shopping todae with the girls. Kristine, Rachel, Clarabelle, Carolyn, Cherie, Stephanie, Lydia. Haha. It was SOooOooo fun. I haven't been shopping for so so long. Feel so deprived. I guess it's only now that I realise how deprived I've been of these things... I used to do it everyday- shop, eat, fuss about clothes, the occasional make-up and shoes. I miss that. The posh drinks (now that we're into New Zealand Natural's Chillos), the clothes that never look good on me...sighz. I want Takopachi.

Larlarlar. Everyone's so much skinnier than me. I have 10 weeks to lose weight. Exactly 10 weeks. So I have to do my best and not end up looking fat in a ball gown. So sad case. Diet starts tomorrow (as they always say) but this time I'm going to keep it. I'd better!! It took me like 3 months to lose weight for last year's prom man... and I wasted it all.

My newest and not so good interest is eyeliner. (The previous one was boys. this is a lot safer, ne?) hahaha. Joking lar~ But dark brown looks good on me. (not boys, silly, eyeliner!) (ehh. I do like dark guys... *winkz*) Anyhow, I need to get back down to Garden City and get some soon. I want my eyeliner!!! (ok, I can tell that this is a passing phase. How much eyeliner can one own?) La la la. But anyway, I can make a fancy guess as to the next interest. How about...
lip gloss
mascara
crazy tops
manga
houses
eyeshadow?

Suggestions will be very welcome. haha.

As for Okami, you asked what a bad hair day in a ponytail would be. I say it's when it's so smooth the rubber band keeps falling off, or when it's so dry the hairs stand up on top. Or it could also be when the rubber band doesn't stay on right and all your hair looks lopsided and sticks out at the rubber band... or when your hair turns blue all by itself. (not needing us to stand in front of Mrs Lam's mirror to turn it blue.)

Dunno larr. We'll find out soon enough... =)
Jaa Ne~

DwAyNe didn't get into Singapore idol... *cries* SOMEONE tape the audition for me! *cries some more* haha. Answered prayer. Lydia just said she would hahahaa. *grinzz*

*stretches* I did calculus productively today. So satisfied! (smug look) Exercise 10D, written by mr. A.J. Sadler. I really don't dislike the man, just his work. *burn the books!!!*

Yays~ Johnny Depp is on TV!!! *goes nuts* I must WATCH! hahaaha EeeEeeeKs!! *goes ecstatic!*

Oh yeah, the Olympics are cool too... nyaah. Rach's blog inspired me to go and watch... But I dun like summer olympics, no ice-skating... I wanna see Yuka Sato!!!! hehehe. But the rest of the stuff is cool too.

Hia hia hia. I'm talking to Lydia on MSN again... so happie that I can see her often enough there... now all 3 of us have broadband, but no free time. hehe. Manzai san wa ichiban!!!!!

What groups of 3 are there?
Manzai San
Powerpuff girls (rach, forgive me for ever saying this. I may regret it.)
3 musketeers
3 peas in a pod
3 blind mice (very sexy ones?!?!)
3 tenors (in this case altos)
The 3 amigos (very true)
Romance of the 3 kingdoms, wei, shu and wu
we 3 kings
3 stooges
3 girls a guy and a takoyaki place
Charlie's Angels (yupyup)
Destiny's Child
TLC
Blaque
Sugababes
Atomic Kitten??
3 gorges (or gorgeous?)
Lydia says put 'the fat the fat and the fat' no, Fat cube... -_-" nanda ya?
3 point turn (in parking)

Okae OKAe. This is just getting from bad to worse. I should keep quiet now.

Kekekeek. Thinking of oxymorons now~ like... dirty soap when I dropped the soap bar on the floor just now... hahah.

JOHNNY DEPP!! Here I COME~~~~ WhEeEeEEEEEeeeEeeEeEEe! *euphoria*

[so little time so much to do I'd rather spend one day with you... ]

"Bring It All To Me"(feat. JC from NSync)
[Shamari]There you are
Looking as fine as can be
In your fancy car
I can see you looking at me
What you wanna do?
Are you just gonna sit there and stare?
Baby talk to me
Tell me what's on your mind, baby oh

[Chorus:]Oh baby, bring it all to me
But I don't need no fancy cars or diamond rings
Oh baby, bring it all to me
Gimme your time, your love, your space, your energy

[J.C.]Baby, what's the deal?
Would I be too forward ifI told you how I feel
That's just the way I do my thang
I'm so for real
Are you feeling my Timb's, my baggy jeans
My thug appeal
Do you like it when a man can keep it real?Oh

[Chorus]Oh, baby

[Shamari]Oh, I'll put my pride to the side
Just to tell you how good you make me feel inside
[J.C.]There's not a single question
That we can't make this right
Cause it's you I need every day and night

[J.C. & Shamari]oh ho ho baby yeah[Chorus until fade]

I watched Honey yesterday and I downloaded this song by Blaque, which keeps playing in my head! So I just HAD to post it here. But you wanna know what really sounds good? GMS songs! Rachel gave me one once when I was in singapore... I remember that, and I ended up burning it and I LOVE IT! I haven't watched any Gensomaden Saiyuki but I love the soundtrack! Alone rocks... I like the way it'd done... not too happy, not too sad.

So that's the songs that are running around in my head. Now. I'm trying to get a translation of Alone... hahaha. Trust the net for everything.

Haiz, speaking of which, I am doing an oral presentation on euthanasia. Hah. Which is worth a whooping 4.6 % haha. And which Mrs. Hicks is so eager for us to do well when she didn't give much time or thought to the 9% oral presentation. Life is queer. We've got our priorities all inside out and upside down. Or maybe, we all stuffed the 9% one up, so we've got to make up what we can in this one. *cries* ah well.

*snorts* man, the only place I find an English translation of alone is on a yu yu hakusho fansite that is SHOUNEN AI! *rolls eyes* and what's more... it uses two of my favourite characters... Hiei and Kurama are NOT gay! *sobz* (refer to the section above where I said trust the net for everything.)(I was wrong.)

Alright alright... I will slowly and painstakingly cut and paste the translation and not read the SHOUNEN AI story. I'm sorry, did I emphasise that? *blinks* Well well well... all for what? A GMS song and I don't even have the Kanji... whining again.. haha. stoppit Sara. So Sara stoppited. --> Arundhati Roy's influence. Horrid the god of small things book.

Owari! Why why why are all the words so so sad... oh well, they have a good effect I suppose.

hahah. My daddie~ so farnie. He's sitting less than 10 m away from me and talking to me on MSN. hahaha. So silly. Now he's disappeared to watch a movie...

*yawns* yupyup, netai desune. Oasumi~

You took your love awaytoo fast
Left no chance to say
look back
Now I know the truth-It makes it easier,
Maybe when time goes by,I'll understand
Let's pretend that I've moved on
and I'll tell myself that life goes on
without you-open my eyes and look deep inside,I run away
You threw it all away
So blind pushed me far from you and your life
Now I know the tears wont relieve the loneliness
Maybe when time goes byI'll understand
Let's pretend that i've moved on and
I'll tell myselfthat life goes on without you-
open my eyes and look deep inside,I run away

It's gonna rain. I'm so sorry guys. My blogs haven't been very happy of late, and I really am not gonna be able to resist calling rachel or Lydia soon. I feel so dissapointed with myself, with the rubbish I am... I'm so sorry...

Darling Shu.. I'm gonna pray for your prelims ok? Love ya~

Ekeekeekek. I went totally BoNkErS today, and nobody knows why. It's not cos I'm happy, and I'm only a little sad, so why should I go crazy? the nearest explanation I have is this: I didn't have enough exercise, and I had too much sugar.

But there's no denying that I am annoyed and a bit... well, sad. But then, as my gal power gals would say... No man's worth it. and when you find one that is, he won't make you cry!

Such slacking as I've never seen in my life. Man I'm a slacker! haha. I didn't do much work today, and I forget to bring my biology home to do. Whups. I really should start the heavy studying here, but I belong to Slacker inc... and it's against policy rules.

Wish I could act drunk my whole life. hehe. Acting drunk is fun... *hic* and you don't have to worry about stuff, except for headaches. hahah.

Talking to so many people online. Well. Just gonna try do some chem then. hehe. Maybe post some pics tomorr. Jaa ne~

dum dee dums.

Larr dee deedledee dums. Tired. And infatuated. With Fat. How? Think I'm really silly. Really really silly. But. Still. =)

Okaes.... just typing rubbish for fun, cos I'm so super sian. And so infatuated. With fat. How? Same answer. Silence. Thanks lor. -_-"

I feel bored It's... so... silly of me. Foolish. People say it's not, but i know it is. Very. They're so very nice and polite. Sighz. That's what.

I know. I look like this person who doesn't know what she's going in for. I look like the one who's so Blind.

Song sung blue.

I wish I were older. Less silly.

Dumdedums... ...

hehehe. I updated the blog link for you Lydia... Gomene~ *sheepish face*

What have we been doing in school? You'll never believe it. We've been straining our brains to come up with cheng yu. Lame right? (audience: Oh my gosh, so lame...) We've come up with about 146. And we just keep going on and on and on during those boring lessons where there's nothing to do but WORK. I pride myself in productivity. *oh, the irony...*

Other than that, the tests in the past week have been so queer. I failed my first ever test this year... calculus. hahaha. And the rest of the tests this week could be finished in half the time allotted. That's the queerest thing! So today In applicable math I twiddled with my friendship ring... the one from Okami and Mitei... And the funny thing was that when I looked at it closely, it was almost as if I could sense Singapore... In the whole scratchiness of the fading silver, the copper peering out from underneath, the matt look of the whole ring, simple, yet rich in elegant meaning. It was so queer to feel it so keenly, in the middle of a test when there's nothing else to do... I wear that ring to school everyday, you know...

Then Lil' old Shah started to making these noises...(little and old being very inappropriate descriptions.) how do you describe them? The ones you make and go "popp" with your mouth... and we did them behind Andre.. Who got... Irritated. hahaha. Grant can do them really really loudly. We were bored for half an hour. la la la. Then the test ended. But not without me remembering my best friends.

Yarrrhs, I wanna call you two soon.. but so stuffed up with work lar. Sian arh. I Don't Want To Do English!!!!

Jaa nE!

[tell me, is it true? Can it be true that someone like you could....???]

hiaya. Went to see the play and it was good!

Very very tired now, and I was tired since 5 pm. I don't like my life. Feel like slacking, but can't. Got calc assignment test that I can go to pieces about... applicable EPW, plus my lousy temper these days. I know I've been horrid to everyone. Minna San, gomenasai...

Timtams did well todaes. Maybe he should think about acting? But he didn't seem himself in the play.. perhaps they built his character too 2-dimentionally for me to recognise him as a person.. Man, I can't even recognise him in school with the new hairdo. I'm just a teensy Blonde...

Speaking of which... wo you siang qi na ge ren. Ta de lian yi zhi zai wo de nao li chu sian. Wo zhen shi wu hua ke shuo. =(

Hyaah Hyahh Hyaah. Better sleep. I wish.. I knew for sure~

There are times in life when you blame yourself for lack of people to blame. And you hate yourself for lack of people to hate. And you think you're not good enough, and use that as the nearest reason to explain your confusion. But deep down inside you know that nobody's at fault. Yet you torture yourself, tell yourself to use this hurt and anger to get done what you want done. Doesn't matter what it is, school work, losing weight, studying for tests, cleaning your room... You just channel all the feelings inside you into the work you've got before you. And you lose yourself in it.

Jogging is theraputic. It takes your mind off everything, for sheer need of concentration. You psyche yourself to keep moving, one foot after the other, and you never want to stop. Then the pain starts to set in as the lactic acid builds in your muscles. Yet you know that it's the only way to burn calories. You keep moving. And you don't have enough energy to think about anything else except that next step. The road moves from under you. You stand still, as time moves by like a snail crossing the road. And you're alone. The blissful quietness. The unobtrusiveness of the road and the nodding trees pass you by in the most tranquil way. For all your inner turmoil and struggle to move, you enjoy yourself. That's what jogging is for. For sad people. For people who aren't satisfied. For people who know they can do better than that.

Sometimes in life a good thing happens. And it hurts like crazy. You can't cry, because there's nothing to cry about. Yet, it deserves all the tears that have welled up inside you. And you hate yourself and your life. The funny thing is that you know everything is perfectly fine and in control.

I suppose I should be grateful at the lack of fuss over the whole thing, really thankful that everything's set right. But then, in the setting right of things, a lot of things have gone wrong. A lot of questions have been raised that I cannot answer- that I am afraid to answer. Perhaps this is for the best. Perhaps I should find out something I don't want to know should things drag. Perhaps, just perhaps, this is the best thing that has ever happened to me. I just don't know it yet.

I'm thankful. That my God is in control, and that I am in no way insecure. I feel so safe. Like my life has been set into place for me... that the rocks have been taken out of my path. Like the way has been made for me to wander down life's path enjoying myself... with all the bad things gone.. I don't know why. Perhaps, deep down inside, I'm really grateful for this. Perhaps, we've all proven to be the people we say we are. And perhaps, in all the mess we've made, order has been restored. Somewhere, somehow.

The sky is still blue and the grass is green. Nothing's changed that's bad. But I guess there are pieces of glistening glass to pick up. And tears to dry. It's silly to cry. No one cries over these things... do they?

If you want to love, love carefully because one sided love means total loss.

I don't think this is fair.
Don't think nothing is changed just cos you don't want it to.
It's changed already.
And you can't expect me to play the game.
The game where we all pretend that everything's the same.
Don't want to lose me?
Too late.
A part of me is gone already.
You can try to keep the rest.
But it'll be like gluing petals back on a flower.
It won't stick.
It'll look ugly.
And don't treat me so nice anymore.
Won't do you any good.
I know it doesn't mean anything to you.
So I shan't kid myself into thinking
That you mean it to me.

Winter is so cold. The wind cuts.

I should go now. Work to do. Life to live. Productivity must go up. Must study harder than ever before.

I can see the green lights flashing... on my computer.

It's done... my slippers are pink. my pants are checkered. Life goes on.

It'll take a while. Soon. but the sky is still blue. And the grass is always green.

oyasumi.

lar dee darr~ So over my head mann. Sianz. Should I drop calculus? I've got no homework todae, Just sit and dream.. hyah hyah hyah! Of what was, of what is.. and of what's to come...

Yes yes yes yes. I sent off all my letters today. Good me. *self praise being no praise at all.*

Had a random sorta dinner. Just raided the larder (robbed the resident rodents) and got whatever I wanted for myself. Rats, prepare to wage war with the humans who want their food BACK! In WHOLE peices! *war cry*

Ok, so I didn't have rats. But that's good right?

Todae arrh. Tim tams was SO bad. Suan me and SUAN me and SUAN me. Nyahh. No truce sommore. *makes faces* It's a full blown war hey????? Must think of ways to suan you back. (however, I think I'm really bad at it, so I'll just knit my white flag now.)

hehehe. So many things to write, but nothing to say. Lets just say I'm too lazy to use my brain nowadays. That's really bad because this is the final term. hmm. No comment.

I guess, all in all... you can say that I kinda... xi huan shang yi ge hen ke ai, chao ji hao de ren... How now? Brown cow got ideas? hahaha. Moonie, that's what it is. Moony. Ehh... mooners love company... hyaa. Lydia? rachel? A lil' company? haaallp.... *hic*

People say strange things when they're drunk. I learnt this when talking with Grant todae, who told Melissa she had nice feet on fridae when he was a little.... off. on *hic* very disturbing, hey?

Alright. I want my wallpaper soon okaes, phishy? You rawk man! (hen yao) -_-"

Lydia... 'sup with the bio prac? Killed any insects? Squashed peanuts? Flattened flowers?

Got the cell schedule for this semester. Looks really good to me! about decision making. hmm. I gotta start thinking about uni options. *cranks brain gears.*

hyahaahah, Signing off,
Misune

Jesus Lives to Rock my World!
lalalala person...
[If you knew, would that change anything?][silly question. cos it would.]

Nothing takes the taste out of peanut butter quite like unrequited love.
Charles M. Schulz (1922 - 2000), Charlie Brown in "Peanuts"

Writing a letter to Lydia... haha. So sorry I'm taking forever. It'll get to you, girl... eventually. o_O"

Nyaah. My blog is fixed. *wipes sweat off brow*

Haven't blogged for so long that I don't know what to say... *speechless*

Rachel san... You horr. Buying *ahems* again harr. I think red ones are good. I support red ones. Buy red ones next time, ok?

Lydia baby~ You're so fortunate to be able to see darling Rachel.. can shop with her for red things. hahaah.

Hope life is good with y'all... Bitsy tired... *yawns* talking to Grant on MSN now. So lazy to do anything else...

Kisses over and out~ *muacks*

MuAhHAHhahaha... I HOPE this does the trick.. I've been so so sad cos the blog's been down. I HOPE this does the trick... eheheh.

MeHhh... I wended for my calc seminar todaes. Funn~ not realli. So tired now. 12 midnight... was so so despo to fix this thing.. I didn't finish my calculus assignment. Nvm, there's tomorr.... *yawns*

Now. If this thing works, I can finally post again like a normal person. *sighz* YaRrRrrgHhhhh!

Nites =)

Jon Chee... if you see this horr.. just wanted to sae actually there's a lot of stuff written about you in the archives cos you're so funnie. You just missed it. haha. Like all the cool stuff you've said and done. hahahahaa. ask rachel. Muahahahaha. BOOYA!