Monday, April 26, 2010

Some Improvement

For the first time I considered staying where I am for a long long time. Am I finally getting comfortable? I like my Dennis. Since he is here with me, I guess staying here might be ok.

But we have nice new friends at church.. Which makes things nicer.

Don't feel like working tomorrow.
Just feel like finding art to do for people.

Tuesday, April 20, 2010

7 Months to the wedding and we are choosing tiles


I am so unsure of what I am doing.
Most days, I move like I have some kind of disorder, either because I am frantic to finish one piece of work, or because some part of me is hurting. This week it is my feet and I have been told I should get orthodics.. but that they will be expensive.


Another sigh to sink into the dust.
It's been a while since I've felt alive.
I feel like I am numb, just waking and working because it is survival.
I dont even feel present for half of that time.


Jesus has been here for me
in my lowly state He did not condemn me for His great love
Covered a multitude of my sin.
His blood I see as wine
Sweet, sticky, undeserved.

Monday, April 05, 2010

It takes a turn

Something special about God's signature design is that he makes things as an entity. An integral wholeness makes His work stand out unlike any other. Cars are made out of parts, as I realised the other day when Dennis's passenger side interior door handle came apart. Replacing it would mean removing the door panel and reinstalling another handle, whereas a broken part of our body heals itself cell by cell. You really can't put a person together with black market parts like you can a car.

We have booked our honeymoon to phuket! I am really excited about this part of the wedding. I really don't know why I am not excited about other parts of the wedding at all! Maybe I finished being excited about a year ago... ... I keep going to this website to check out the room! YIIIII!!! Pool access direct from room!!!!!! :) Happy.

Actually, I'm also excited to stay in crown plaza hotel lah.

Anyway. 7ish more months!

I'm going to try something new in life. For the first time in my life, I won't be limited by finance, fear or the feeling that I might fall and never climb back up. I'm going to do what I like in life because it's way to short to be doing work I don't enjoy. :)

His grace is sufficient for me.