Friday, December 31, 2004

What is it about life that throws you around and leaves you tucked in a corner worn and tired? What is it about life that makes you think you're having fun but when the ride stops, you feel cheated, empty, and sick?
What is it about life that just isn't funny once the laughter dies down?

It's the small things, that's what. It's the monotone answers, the curt tone, the aimless shopping, the idle talk and the turn of a head that chooses to ignore someone else's needs.

I've found too many here. Too many to be good for my own soul, because I am on trial and I find myself guilty for more than my fair share of these sins.

It's the small things that have taken me and eaten into my being... that have come unguarded and unnoticed... and they have done their part in the grand play of life well. Too well. Some are good, other bad. If those were the only descriptives in this world life would be easier. Good, bad. But there's terrible, horrendous, exellent, poor, fair, perfect (the one we never hit), and a multitude of others... You can never tell what one thing is because of the choice of words there are to label it with.

I wish life was less painful. But I don't say it, because I don't mean it. I know I hurt for my own sake... to learn. To grow. To let go and to keep, to rise and fall...

Perhaps it is sleep that I need.. why the pessimism, sara? You're usually not like this! I look in the mirror and I see the same face, but the emotions behind it have changed.

Jesus I believe in you
and I will go
to the ends of the earth
To the ends of the earth
For you alone are the son of God
And all the world will see
You are God
You are God

Jaa Ne. Sleep Well.

Tuesday, December 28, 2004

Well well well. Results are out! What's to say? err. I survived 2004?

TER was good. Bio was bad, eng good, calc good, applic bad and chem was predicted. yay!

No mood to blog. too sick with flu?!?! haha. aniwaes... go back to Perth then very Eng then I blog lorrs.

for now... jaa ne!

Thursday, December 02, 2004

It's In The GeNeS!

Dearie Lydia is here to blog with me in pink. (supposed to be in vogue but never mind.)

What did I do today?? Hmms, I bought SO MUCH STUFF! and I finally did the thing I wanted to do for 10 months! Eat Takopachi. (take that, sotong.) And I told everyone that if I died now I would die a happy woman. So much for eating to live. =)

Me? piggy too fat..but takopachi rox..esp since u realise that you're chewing sOtOnG.hahaz. never bought so much..but bought stuff too! haha. Sara was addictive on her shoppin spree..somewhat. Walked till i almost died. lucky i didn't..cos sushi for supper!!!hahaz. Oh ya...took pics today too! sooOoOoo coolz..so goes by ---> It's in the gEnEs... :รพ

Haha.. eat eat eat, but we did in the end walk a fair amount. From bugis we walked in the heat to City Hall. so fun. Color phones are expensive. Hope Rach's dad doesn't want his. Hehe.. sell me! I bought earrings that read sexy baby and Lyd bought PINK ones. bad bad bad. a bad sign. Haha. Took sexy pictures with her too! WheeEeeE. So so cool. Haha. Got rachie's bdae prezzie too! hehe, that's why she wasn't here today!

PiNk ish a bad sigh???nonono...Sara dear..that coming fm you considering you typing everything in pINk rite now..hahaz.( it's my nice com syst) Pink earrings are wayy cool...and hu's to say no..my boyfren?..hahaz. dun hav one lo. (sticks out tongue). Aniwae..not to be too lor sor...it's susshi buying time! sushi..!!! wait for mee! and haha..be jealous ppl..we'll eat them for you! see..so kind! ciaoz!!!

Read and weep. =)