Yaya, Yaya~ hehehe.

Girls... I LOVE THE TEE! Thankew~ *muacks* and the pic of Lyd and Rach... and the letter from Rachel... Thankew SO MUCH!!!

Just a post to thank you~ not gonna write now. mehh.

Learning things about yourself is never easy, and it's always a sobering experience. sighz. It sucks... and requires a large amount of tissue. Sigh. I feel so sober now. *hic*

Ohwell. A toast to you. May life's lessons come easier to you than to most. And may you all grow to be beautiful men and women of God. Cheers.

No, no wine today. Just chocolate ice cream from Gelare's called chocolate overload. Yums.

Let this be a lesson today to me... PRIDE KILLS. Just like smoking. Don't believe me? Try it. And you'll find that when you're on your death bed, no one will be there. As it is, I've already done some pretty nasty things due to my disgusting pride. And it sucks. I wish I could take it all back... but I can't. Just gotta move on.

Okaes. Sobering day~ well well, school tomorr, better prepare. Bye bye!!

 

haha. Went to Koorong. Serene (that darling girl) got me a book! And I love it! It's by Nicky Cruz, and anyone who knows his story will be amazed!! This book is called "one Holy Fire" and it's just as fantastic, if not better!

Ate really good food. Mumsie Rawks. Thank you!! *muacks*

Hiaa... gonna try twiddling with Lydia darling's blog. (no, it's not her surname, it's an affectionate term.)

Jaa ne~

No DoUbT AbOuT It. GoD RuLeS. AlWaeS HaS. AlWaEs WiLL. EnD Of DiScUsSiOn.

I went Jogging!Hahaha. So satisfied with my exercise. Thanks to Jean for calling me out! Yay... *dances around* haha. Haiz. Lydia... Blog arh? I still trying to find some skins leii. Sighz. I try harder... since I dun wanna do math, hey? hahas.

i miss you Lydia and Rachel!!!!!!!!!!!!! Yargh! *adrenaline rush from jogging hasn't died*

Niwaes. I have made a decision to join the campus zone in church instead of the youth. No more dithering between one and the other. Goodie. Achievement!

eh... noe something? I think Brandon is cool. Or at least the way he blogs. I have never met him in my life but I think he's cool. He's under Okami's links. Check it out! *hehe*

WhOo Hoo!! Congrats to this blog on it's 70th post! *throws confetti* Does that mean it's old now? Heyhey, this rich text format just appeared to answer my previous post's rantings on colour changes. Cool, hey?? Now i can do it easy as anything!

Back from camp... I had a horribly tiring day yesterday trying to reset my body clock and my food intake clock. (what rubbish, hey?) yes yes yes... guilty of eating junk food and chocolates and everything that's bad for me. *hangs head in shame*

Got a nice injury on my little finger... (hmph, just cos it's small doesn't mean it should be bullied.) Now my fourth finger is taking care of it in the buddy system way.. it acts like the support for the little one. (aww.... so schweet.)

Shuling!! Hahahas, I read your blog and it was the funniest thing ever! what old man and rings and other things. And 3d loser hands, hey? I dun think Alex Flemming (our "good friend") would be very happy to hear u make fun of his left hand rule for electromagnetic induction.

Rachel, your theory on vitamin C genes is just as hilarious!!! hahaha... ehh, woman, that shot for "off-limits" genes was SO aimed at me girl. Yeah, farnie. but I still have that gene and it's working pretty well...*sticks out tongue*

Now... how shall i begin to describe camp??? In numbers, I suppose. I gained 700g from all the choc and junk food. ahahas. a lot, horr. *winkz*

okae okae, apart from the food (which was realli good), it was a camp where I basically gained a lot a lot a lot in terms of spiritual experience. The first 2 sessions (there were 4) I was just sitting there.. and listening.. and nothing else... and to tell the truth I was feeling pretty crappy. by the end of the night games and I thought my will was gonna break... I felt like going for camp was a total and complete waste and if God wanted me here (as I thought he did) it would be a realli nice time for him to tell me why now. Of course, God never does things according to man's will, and I never truly found out why I went to camp althou other sundry reasons did surface.

All I know is that I ended up in the centre of the carpark under the countless stars on the phone with Jon. -_-" So so so sorry to have disturbed him at unearthly hours, but... thanks aniwaes for the immense support and encouragement. (althou I dun think he'll ever see this.)

I think the thing that was most important to me that night was to learn to sacrifice praise. To thank God in the midst of it all, in the middle of being in a place where I didn't know what was happening, and didn't like what was happening... and it worked! It's not about changing the circumstances, cos that's not possible. It's about changing your attitude. Yes, yes, yes. It has everything to do with attitude and nothing to do with whining. (I did a lot of it, though, that night)

It made a big difference the next day, cos when I woke up I had a song in my head that just ran thru all day.. and people didn't change, circumstance didn't change, but I was okae with the way things were after that, and I wasn't upset that people weren't any nicer. heh~ okae... maybe they weren't so huffy and cold, but that could have something to do with the fact that I stopped talking so much to them. (-_-" theory of relativity)

THEN, THEN, things began to happen. The third session, God really came and swept the place, and both Cherry and Mark received the baptism of the Holy Spirit! Thank God!!!! (Since he's reading this, I may as well thank Him here. hehe~) I really gained a lot from that cos it was my first time praying for someone else in this way... and all the gifts that God had given me that i had put aside this year for lack of place to use them, and fear of asking to be let in to use them just came back and I remembered where I was before.. and it was so good to use those gifts for God again.

Here's hoping he will expand me even more than he already has (and it's been painful). I feel like the camp's been really worthwhile! And I feel like I've been tried and tested in some ways.. and I HAVE learnt heaps because of the bad experiences...

Okae, I realise this mostly sounds incoherent, but when I look back on this post in the archives, I'll understand perfectly... so it's a pretty selfish post, hey? But... hehe~ I do need to record stuff somewhere and with a injured finger this is the perfect place.

So... while feeling slightly bad about the incoherency and still laughing over sundry funny posts (some aimed at me, some not) I shall leave it at this till a later date.

Love y'all!
-Smilez-
*trying to stop craving Chocolate*

 

Today is Wednesday... (yeah I know it says so on the top.) Tomorr I go into camp and shan't be back till ermz.. monday afternoon. No blogging till then, I suppose. I'm so so so ZoNkEd OuT right now. I stayed up till 12.30 just to try to study for the section of UMATS that requires much patience with grumpy old ladies, perverted patients, colleges with BO, irritating psychopaths and sundry other minor problems in the medical industry. (such as the ineffiecncy of nurses, and the relatively incompetant number of bedpans in wards.)(oh, and that hospital food tastes bad.)

hahas, really drowsy now, but the day is so tranquil, and the sun is out so it's not very cold... Just that I have a bit of a headache due to overexerting my "peacemaking" skills in the UMATS test. (no, it wasn't the anime although I wish it was.)

Eating wafers now. Chocolate, as usual. Anything else could be considered sacrilegious, ne? *jumps around dancing on a sugar high*

better be packing for camp. I have to sleep early or else I'll Zonk out tomorrow in camp and that won't be very fun, right?

Still busy being very very happie about the whole ice skating thing. hahaa! I lOvE ice-skating... I wish I could take lessons. But it's Okae... I shall just enjoy falling down unprofessionally.

Yippes, Does anyone know how to put colour into the entries? Do I have to use the codes?? Ah, it's too dark to notice color changes aniwaes... so maybe I shall just be not bothered and go sloth around.

Sighs. Should I paint my nails? There's only a week plus left till school starts and I can't really be stuffed. haha. *lazziee*

Okae larr... headache calls. Be back soon! Have fun! WhEeEeEe!!

Yeah man! I got blisters on both feet and I can't walk properly. I went ice skating and it was the most exhilarating thing ever. ahahs. But those small girls with super slim waists and nice loooooong legs who can do like wonderful things on skates are so inspiring. I wish I could. As it is I'm a lot less afraid of the ice than I was before... I tried to do what Lydia taught me. (the aust one)Wheeeeee.

Fell down once, better than my current track recoed anyways. hahas.

Todae is Charissa's birthday. Happy b-dae gal!

One day more and I shall call you Wachel Okami Phish Mitsuka Gan. hahahass! OWWCH. Blisters hurt. owach. ooeuch. ick. oggly. okae. I shall stop now.

Way to go man! I got sommore homework! And I ate a whole mars bar today. (the guilt is cooooming)(nooooooooo.... I dun wanna die of FAT!!!)okae, back to homework. I have math and english and and and and... I, I just wanna call Okameeeeeeeeeee.

Noe wat? I'm so restless and fiddly that I think I'll just dissapear and call Lydia nowww.... Babeeeeee piggyy how are you???

yipppppiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiie!

Word of the day: Exhilaration.

Remember that. It's a nice feeling. *smiles*
Cheers, peeps!

HAAAAAh!!! Guess what I was doing? I finished 21 chapters of summaries detailing the most perverted material I have ever read. (I know there's worse, I just don't read it.) *man zhu gan*

HAHA! less work for me. I just realised that UMATS are on the 28th of July, which is a SCHOOL DAY. I get to skip out! Yahoooooo! I get to go UWA and do some exams thing. -_-" wait a sec. I have to study for it now.... and I'm so lazy. I want to watch anime. Someone come and get me outta here... smuggle me away.. quiiiiieck!

I saw Rachie online.. only for a while but I still enjoyed it! Heh. I got to see the cool webbie she designed for VJC! Go Okami! Hey phishy you're so fine you're so fine you blow my mind hey phishy hey hey hey phishy! Oh wait, you hate that song. -_-" whoops. But anywayy... I put it on the links because I love Vj and I love Rach and I think this is a masterpiece. *embarrasses her* Hey everybody! My friend RACHEL is a great webbie designer!!!!!

Tomorr I get to see debbie and I'm supposed to teach her chinese. goodie.

I sent of 2 letters, one to debs (in UK) and one to darling Rachel Leong in Singapore who is only pri. 4 this year. Cutie pie.

Congrats on surviving your exams, Darling Rachel (the darling one, not the small one)
Congrats on surviving the start of poly life, Lydia!!!!

Wheeeeeeee maybe I get to go ice skating on Thursday!!!!!!!!!!! I love to skate and I dun go often enough!

Oh weellll.. late liaoz. better slp. Can't wait to call rach on thursday night!
Oyasumi.

Hahas! Haven't posted in ages! Tired desuyo.... I stayed up till 2 am on the phone. *guilty look* I've finally gotten all the bloggy things done, and my blog's got a facelift. I think the colour's too intense, though. I'd rather get something light.

Thinking of making blogskins from scratch. cool thing, this HTML (sorry larr Rach, I slow cannot arh?) But I think i'll be too tired and busy to do that. That's the way I feel, anyhow.

RACHEL! Can't wait to call you. So itchy fingers to take the phone and dial now... hehehe... I'm just so excited to be talking to you on thursday. And on thursday I'll be hopefully going skating. Sighz. Wanna go skating with you like we used to...

Lydia baby, How's poly? Fun? I'm sure a lot of guys have their eye on you so watch out okae? hehe. Chio bu mahh... how's the workload like? Hopefully still got time to enjoy...

I got a tonne of holiday homework to do. 216 chem questions, but I finished quite a bit of them already. And the English homework. Ok, maybe shouldn't talk about that cos Arunhati Roy finally comes into the picture. She's a nice lady and all... Just that I don't fancy the book. Just like rachie doesn't like the little prince that way.

Maybe it's cos I'm on hols or something, but I still find you two to be sorely missing in my life. I knew I'd have withdrawal symptoms, but... they haven't seemed to abated. I'm definately gonna love my holiday when I come home and I'm gonna have so much of you in my life when I go you'll be sick of me. hahaa.

My inner child is sixteen years old!

Life's not fair! It's never been fair, but while
adults might just accept that, I know
something's gotta change. And it's gonna
change, just as soon as I become an adult and
get some power of my own.


How Old is Your Inner Child?
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Hey whadaya know! I'm as old as my inner child!!!! cool.

Heyheys!

I was reading Char's blog and this really struck me. I guess I don't agree with all of it... yet.. After reading Mitsuka's and Mitei's entries... I guess this is applicable...

Learn 2 love the people who are with you at
present. forget the people in the past and thank
them 4 hurting you, which led you 2 love the
people you have right now. When you love
someone, you'll do crazy things you can't
explain, you'll deny the truth and believe in
lies. When you love someone, you sacrifice, give
everything you've got and don't think twice. You
risk it all no matter what.
Everything in life is temporary because
everything changes. That is why it takes courage
to love, knowing it might end anytime...having
faith will make it last.

I think I find it extremely hard to forget the people in the past simply cos they are such fantastic peeps.

I think Lydia is right- that after people keep leaving her life she's just afraid to open up so easily anymore. I do that a lot, and I had no idea that my leaving would have such a profound effect in the way I react to people. Why couldn't I keep my life like that... with the childish candidness that used to be so much a part of me.

I guess when I came here a big part of me died... and I wish that I could have frozen last year in time and lived in it for always. But I would never grow that way... So i must thank God that right now things aren't smooth and that I am learning as he stretches me. (btw, it's like getting yanked and pulled and it's not very fun at all)

Why am I still looking back? Look foward! Shikkari! And never forget where I came from. Who I love, and why I love them.

My best.... you're still the gals who rawk my world. So hold on tight and I look foward to seeing you become even more beautiful than when I left you. You RAWK!

Results came back today. Not as good as I wanted. 3B's. 3A's. Sucks when you think about the fact that my continual assessments pulled me down. (not below sea level, though)

Ah well. U noe tt titration competition? I got into the finals!! Whoohoo! (nerd's joy. 0_o") I mean, when I mention titraion, most people are like... what's that? and when I explain, they're like, "you mean they judge you on accuracy?" and I'm like... ermz.... yah! And I get this look. -_-"

But it's ok. I amm not ashamed to say that I work hard for my grades.

Tomorr they want me to play Starless (from RK) for assembly with Charissa. We swear we'll make the school cry. (Lydia, do you proud baby!) heh heh. There are 2 items, one's super HAPPY and starless we've made super SAD. So Mrs. Pieterson the music teacher asks which one goes first. And me and Charissa decided we want people to leave sad, so we'll play Starless second. (so bad right.) Muahahahaahahaa. Cry people! It's the last day of school!!!!!!!!!!! *yappari!* wait. something not right... hahas.

kaezkaez larr, I gtg sleep noww. And I'll be on hols after tomorr! *hic* I'm high on chocolate!!!!! heeeeeeee~ *ditsy*

actually, I ate so much to try to cure the homesickness. Now I feel FAT! (hahaha! I am FAT!)

The "you tell me for what list":
1.My blue striped socks have holes.
2.I borrowed X by clamp from the library.
3.One of my nails chipped and I cut it short and it's shorter than the others
4.I'm talking to Jon now
5.I borrowed azumanga daioh to watch!!!!
6.i'm gooooone to sleeeeeeeeeeep.
7.ZzzZzzZzzZzzZzzzZzzzzZZzzzzZZzzz

I could hear the woosh of the rain outside, the sleet as it showered down. Droplets of force at a 45 degree angle, mercilessly pelting down. By the time my tears reached the floor, you could hardly tell what was rain and what wasn't.

Naho-san is leaving for Nagoya today. it's her last day, and I don't know when she will be going exactly, but her absence will leave a very sore spot in class. Although she wasn't the outgoing one, her demeanour attracted me because the best word to describe her would be 平気。And she was always quietly doing things for us, whether sticking things together, writing out kanji calligraphy, or helping us with homework. She was extremely patient with me, knowing that I took 5 minutes to actually decipher certain things she said to me. I won't forget that in a hurry. 忘れない. I wish I could say all that I want to say in Japanese, but I can't.

Anyhow, I am doing this silly show called Zoolander for English, and it really is the funniest form of slapstick. I can't imagine goofing off like that in fromt of people, but it really sets me off laughing.

Sighz. so super lazy!!!!!!! I'm going to watch TV or something.. not gonna do the ton of hw that piled up.

じあまった！

なほさん、さよなら。どうもありがとう。日本に行きたいですよ！　じあ　まった。