Monday, February 28, 2005

Warhaha. Outside the hayman theatre... on this nice ulu slope... =)

Hehe. Can u see a bit of the background? Campus campus... I don't know which part. hahahaa. I get so lost in school man.

Looks so ulu right.. with the trees and the bricks.. hahaha. but it's not, really.
Hmm. The physio people got it good.
They OWN 408.
the nearest place to the carpark
and the NEWEST building.
I should go there and pretend it's my faculty...
it's so modern..
and my blocks are some ulu places...
but it's not that ulu.. the 300 plus ones are worse. haha.
Kyou wa watashi no hajimenohi! eheheee.
first day.
With only 1 subject today.
Clinical Science.
Wheee... I got a nice lecturer. Placcid.
And tomorr's the first day of autumn.
Happy Autumn!!!
Dum dee dum.
It's getting chilly.
Did you know?
The best SLEEPWEAR of all time
is murdoch college's jumper.
hahahahaah.
I'm so serious!
It's warm and comfy.
and sleepyish.
No wonder I fell asleep in class last year.
wahahha.
They say Curtin's a fashion parade.
It's so sadly true.
So shall I jump on board and join them?
Hahaha.
We'll see.
=)
*-[Crazy Ridiculous]`+
I'm just going nuts about this stuff.
I'm so disorganised.
Papers to file
notes to print.
And I have class from 12 to 2 only.
Warhahaha.
That's tomorrow I guess.
AArGh.
AaaAaaaaarGgGggGggGh
*screams loud*
I think I'm PMSing.
Or just plain scared.
I think...
It's both.
And I cancelled on Jon.
I feel so bad.
ARRRGH.
I really shouldn't have.
I should have goneeeee
but anyways.
It's probably just as well.
Whoo.
ARGH.
And ARGH is for all the
things I cannot say.
the inexplicable bitchy things.
Whoo.
Uni's turning me into a clawing cat now?
Or is that PMS.
HeLllooo?! Identify yourself.
Stress? Fear? PMS?
LALALALALALA.
Fed Up.
I shall go and eat chocolate now.
It's good for PMS
and for getting fat.
Jaa~

p.s. Had a STRANGE dream. Wonder if it means anything, as the others seem to have...
ppss. Had an outing with the jap girls. Wheee. Need to go out more with them... it's so nicee.

Saturday, February 26, 2005

*-[Having regained composture]`+
Do not fear.
I am just as confused and lost as I was previously.
I have just stumbled upon APA referencing.
Doesn't ring a bell, does it? and it really shouldn't.
You shouldn't read this stuff if you don't have to.
It teaches you how the
American Association of Psychology
would like you to have your papers written.
Right down to squabbling about 1 inch margins.
Which doesn't happen
because these wonderful people
have put everything in black and white.
No arguement.
Just slight confusion
and utter and complete chaos in my file.
A very tired me turned up for dance at 4.30 today.
Angela Piranha said I looked pale.
But we got some choreography done!
And we finally did a good nice dance that ended properly.
=) Warha.
I LoVe choreography!
But it makes me ache.
I'm so tired and my tummy is fat.
What to do?
I know.
Give it a name.
Suggestions???
Thus I managed to stay in church until 9.
And good old Vinny gave me the chord book!
well, I have to return it..
but it's good to have it for a while!
=) Yeay! thanks Vinny!
Funny Funny.
I went to visit Shah at Chisa's place
because it was his birthday
and I said hi to some people I haven't seen
since last year.
I saw Grant.
And I saw that he's got so much potential...
So much more in him
that could live...
and live really beautifully.
Just wish somehow
Someone
Somewhere
would reach out to him
and convert him.
yes.
ConVeRt.
I know I'm blatant.
But I really wish it.
It would be so cool.
I hope he doesn't see this.
Lydia.. are u coming?? I'm WaItInG~
RacHeL... you musn't lose heart! I LOVE your singing!!!
Su*.. JoIn DANcE!!!
DebBie.. I got the book you sent babe! ThankS!
Sotong... Don't get chao tar. We still wanna eat u wan.

I love this song... The words are BeAuTeeeeful!

*-[Always]`+
Did you rise the sun for me?
Or paint a million stars that
I might know your majesty?
Is your voice upon the wind?
Is everything I've known
Marked with my maker's fingerprints?


Breathe on me
Let me see your face
Ever will I seek you.


'Cause all you are is all I want
Always
Draw me close
In your Arms o God
I wanna be with you


Can I feel you in the rain?
Abandon all I am to have you
Capture me again
Let the earth resound with praise
Can you hear as all creation lives to
Glorify one name?

Friday, February 25, 2005

Ok, I hate to say this but BAKA! BAKA BAKA BAKAAAAAA!
No, it's not even chotto baka. It's VERY BAKA!
*screams till I fade out*
*screams more*
The uni people think I am in primary school.
They made me draw a life sized outline of the human body.
They made me locate the heart, lungs, brain, bladder,kidneys and a whole host of other things.
Never mind.
We sat in little tables like in primary school.
We appointed group roles for one another.
I was the one who was supposed to locate the position of the organs.
Umm.. where's the brain?
Never mind.
That one's excused because it was a biology orientation.
So, what's so baka?
How about the fact that the clinical science lecture notes are font size 72!
How dumb does a stack of paper 17 pages long look when all the words are font size 72!
I've wasted at least 8 sheets of paper printing out notes because I am supposed to and because it's supposed to give me space to write notes on it. But how am I supposed to take notes when the rest of the notes are font size 72!
For goodness's sake, aim for a sense of normalcy, can? I'm not that blind!
*smoke slowly rises to cause a haze*

Warahahaha. Relax... relax... It's okae. Just go to class without the notes. you won't die. Breathe.. Welcome back to the study world.

Wednesday, February 23, 2005

*-[ *jumpin' jumpin'* ]`+
Orientation is tomorrow!
I'm slacking like mad now.
Because from tomorrow onwards,
My life will move so much faster!
It's like a slingshot.
I'll be hurling through time and space
finding I haven't enough of both
until november where things slow down again
and I can take a breather.
NOT!
Because that's when I can rush around
on my favourite little Island!
(I sound like I'm a rich brat
who owns the bahamas)
SiNgApOrE!!!
Warha! Shopping!
Loving my friends!
OoOh.
I can't wait! Hee!
*grin beyond grin*
Today is lazy day.
Be little and whiny day.
Who cares day.
Slacking day.
Tomorr is Shikkari day!
It's starting day.
Study day,
be good day,
be disciplined day.
The threshold of today and the next
changes so much...
Sigh.
But I'm looking forward to it~~
*races around like tomo chan*
aha.
I need fruit loops. They're yummy!
Childish today...
Dunno why...
And the Jerry Springer show is
ROTTEN.
EyUk. Scandalous.
Yes, simply scandalous.
Actually I like that word.
Like chocolate is...
Scandalous.
And eating more than one grain of rice a day is
Scandalous.
It's just plain
Scandalous.
hehehe.

Sunday, February 20, 2005

*-[I dare not fight, But I will wink..]`+
Old Billy Shakespeare again...
I'm tired and frustrated.
Too much to do in one day.


今日、晩御飯お作りました。
時々、状況はとても痛いね。
痛い、痛い、痛い!!
なるほど。痛い。

Wednesday, February 16, 2005

*-[Emmanuel]`+
I'm so glad that no matter what I do, God's always here for me.
It's a wordless song that describes how you make me feel.
It's majesty and splendour even when I'm unworthy.
And I feel unworthy.
Thank you for the cross.
Thank you for the price you paid.


Rain is unusual in these parts at this time of the year.
Yet when I opened the front door this morning,
I could smell the rain.
And it brought a comfortable sense of being home in Singapore.
I thank God for the constant reminders that I have no home here.
I have no home on this earth.
And that makes it that much easier to travel
To be displaced to a place
Where so many things are the same.
In the days where Perth and Singapore merge,
I am thankful.
He's filled my cup,
with life abundant.
Heaven and earth may pass away.
But his word will remain.
Steadfast.


Monday, February 14, 2005

*-[Say what?]`+
YaPpari! I finished my notes on the 1st chapter of my textbook. Semantics, phonology, morphology, syntax and pragmatics are swimming around in my head. Cognitive development is probably something I want to understand but will have to put in a dreadful amount of effort to do so.
I met Yuuko yesterday. Osaka jin de, nihongo o benkyoshimasu. I'm hoping for a shopping trip with her soon.
And K is supposed to drop a shirt off at my place but he hasn't called. Oh well, no loss to me.
I was jolted out of bed in the morning by a ringing phone at full volume. And a poor potential guild president at the other end. I hope the elections went well, Janni!

Ook. I should be going. It's so hot and I don't like the laptop causing me heatstroke on my lap. (ever wonder where the term Laptop came from?)

Sunday, February 13, 2005

*-[The Quality of Mercy is not Strained]`+
As quoth dearest Billy Shakespeare.
It's not difficult to know that this is true of my Lord Jesus,
but the same cannot be said of I and my mortal race.
Mercy runs dry from humanity so many times,
In the eyes of those who've grown hard, bitter, and cold.
In the gritted smile and forced handshake of an old acquaintance,
In the scheming minds and accusing tongues of all of us,
and in the too-fast words and decisions we make.
Because it is not by my love which I love
Not my grace by which I forgive.
It is God, love personified, who gives me the capacity to love,
and it is also him whose grace is sufficent for me,
who allows me to give of his grace through me to others.
His strength made perfect in my weakness.
It's his light that shines through my darkness...



It's begun to hurt me more than I expected. The mistake (and no small one, I assure you) has begun to dole out consequences a lot more generously than the paycheck one gets every month when bankrupt. I think a reverse would be nice. (They with more money and I with less consequences.) I suppose one could put it down to my folly, absurd stupidity, my abominable lack of judgement that certainly cannot be overlooked. I accept the blame for the knotting together of the situation, but I know that it doesn't help at all for what I've done, nor will it change the consequences. In hope that wretched feelings and spilt milk will not be the undoing of everything, I'll hide the pain it causes me and smile instead. There's never something you don't learn from.



Gastritis seems to be the latest fad my body's taken to.
I wake up in the mornings feeling like a blimp.
Wish it was helium instead...
Then I could fly instead of walk.
I've been having these increasingly strange dreams.
They perturb me severely.
I really hope they're random ones.
Chocolate-honey covered mexican jumping beans?
I don't know what to make of it...
I thank the Lord for friends who love me.
The two who've TRULY been there
THICK and THIN.
Even when I've been the annoying one.
The one who just talks and talks
And then cries. and worries too much.
I want to thank you two, my besties,
for listening, for loving me still.
Rachel the Phish
and Lydia the pinky pig.
Like they always say, Love is when you know a person's faults and still accept them.
And I want to remember to say a big thank you every so often,
lest I take you forgranted.
I Love You babes!


[And the sun every morning can not wait to shine
And the stars every evening are all standing by to light the sky
Give the rocks and the stones voices of their own
If we forget to sing praises to our King.]
*-[He's the only one to whom praise is due. JC's in the house.]`+

Friday, February 11, 2005

*-[Green Tea Leaves]`+
I wondered for a foolish moment
if there were such things as green tea leaves.
Or Just tea leaves, made green.
So that they can be labelled so.
Aren't they all green?
Okae, let's not go there.
I see the bimbo coming out.

There are, on the other hand,
other slightly less bimbotic things.
Note slightly. *grins*
For example, the discussion on whether it would be
Cheaper to buy chocolate milk
or buy cadbury cocoa and make it yourself.
With LOW FAT milk. =)

I was productive in the area of walking today.
First to Koorong, then to freemantle.
Koorong is just the best!
I was tempted to buy the WHOLE bookstore.
And Switchfoot was on offer. =)
Jester?
I was so tempted to buy everything from bookmarks
to CDs
to T-shirts
to books. for what does a bookstore carry in huge amounts?
Books. =)
I could go on forever but I shan't bore you.

I met a girl called Emma, from south carolina.
She's doing a sem of uni here in Perth.
And I saw in her the initial uneasiness of this country
reflected in the dark poster of the bus stop
as the sun shone glaringly upon it
almost menacingly.
The quietness. The shops and the buses.
The fish and chips.
The missing friends.
The air that's calm. Dead calm.
But I felt no sympathy for her
She was so strong.
She will be just fine.
She'll make friends.
She'll love life.
She'll talk and laugh and have fun.
I may never see her again.
And even if I don't,
I hope she has as many friends as a girl can have.
I hope she'll life like a girl should.
And have as much fun as a girl can.
It's been a pleasure to meet Emma.

The second hand bookstore in freemantle is rustic.
It's just plain beautiful.
The wrinkled old lady whose soul shines through as young.
Her love of books,
her accounts, her pen and her lamps.
The fabric bound books.
'Rudyard Kipling, Jungle book'
Engraved into fabric.
Or Shakespeare's faded face on 'Twelfth night'
I wonder how he'd feel were he alive?
This same portrait of him
plastered on simply EVERY book of his.
Well, there are plenty of books that have his face on it too
Even though they aren't written by him.
I wonder if that was his worst picture?
How would you feel if people plastered your face all over books after you died
and they used your WORST picture.
Then again, I suppose people back then drew better than we draw today.
And he probably wasn't photogenic anyway.
The invention of the camera probably wasn't much of a loss to him.
Sorry Billy.
I still think you're a genius anyhow. =)

Listening to Psalm 13 by Shane Barnard.
It so rawks.
ThAnkEw Jester.

Digressing to Koorong
Cos I can't help it.
I wanted to get the Mary Mary Cd.
Or the Rebecca St. James.
Revolve is now at an all time wonderful price of $16.95
And there are NEW vegetales.
Go Larry! I love you! haha.
And Larry T shirts.
Ooooh. Cucumber...
And Max Lucado books.
And a 15% discount!
Because mummy is a Tabor Student.
ehehe. *rubs hands together*

Well, I shall retire now.
To my tortoise shell.
Green with patterns
Should I paint it?
Flower power?
Or rustic red?
forgive the lameness.

HAPPY
CHINESE
NEW
YEAR!!

Jon I still want ang bao from you.

Monday, February 07, 2005

*-[crazy in love]`+

You were around before time began
Your mind is beyond my comprehension.
High above all else
Seated in glory
You're clothed in righteousness



And yet I know who you are
Quintessential love.
Secret-keeper.
You give me more than enough.
You've got me crazy in love.



What is man that you are mindful of him?
We were created for your glory.
Majesty personified
Ancient of days
You never cease to amaze me.



And yet I know who you are
Saviour, Creator
Life Sustainer
You taught me how to laugh.
You've got me crazy in love.



You came to give your life,
And we took it, cruelly.
By your death we live.
By your wounds, restored.
Your love captivates my soul.



And so I know your love
we walked on water
you carried me.
Creator of life, you taught me how to live
You've got me crazy in love.



You held my hand, lead me out of darkness
and into your marvelous light.
You loved me.
made me sunsets and stars.
All of you is what I need.



And so I know your heart
that loves to give
that knows how tears are shed.
Jesus I believe in you
You've got me crazy in love.



So this is my treasure
in jars of clay
Hard pressed but not crushed
perplexed but not in despair
persecuted but not abandoned
struck down but not destroyed.
Because in your death I live
Because you're my king.



I love the time I spend with you,
We've talked and danced.
And you've shown yourself to be a love
surpassing all others.
You're irreplacably wonderful.



And this is who you are
my refuge, redeemer
problem mender
I'll abide in you alone.
You've got me crazy in love so I can



bounce bounce back
from all life throws me.
smile in the face of adversity.
make sure no one stops me
child of the most high king.
I wanna be
extravagant
exuberant
extreme for you
the great I AM.
White, pure, sovereign King
You're irresistable
Magnetic
Majestic
Glorified above all else.
I'm paid for in full,
in blood
A done deal,
Closed and sealed.
I'm owned by you alone.



And this is who I am
A child, an heir
Loved beyond loved
Washed, sanctified and justified
You've got me crazy in love
Jesus, I am so in love with you.



[love, PrInCeSs]
.*-Proskuneo. `+

*-[Deja Vu]`+
Sometimes the pain of Deja Vu isn't there in a prominent way. Sometimes we just remember things. And today I remember. I remember oh so clearly the time I spent in Perth with Ps Daph and Ps Chad which will always remain so so precious and close to me. I will remember the ice cream, the walking, the apartment, the planetshaking, the car, the subi markets, the grocery shopping, the laughter, and the love they gave me. And I want to say a big big thank you to them! I mean... what could be wonderfuller? Two people who really reach out to you and make your life so much more wonderful.
I miss you guys so much already.

Dear God, you know I want so much more. But sometimes it hurts... and I somehow want to run away from it all. But I know that you want me to grow instead. You want me to fall into your love and you want to heal the wounds I have... you want me to be crazy in love with you. And you want all the good things in life for me, things that are of eternal value, things that last. So I choose you, I choose life, and life more abundant, that in my brokeness you show yourself more than ever before. Your daughter, Sara.

*-[He was broken for my transgressions, his blood was shed for my iniquity]`+

*`.(( He is the reason I breathe. And so I will sing. )`.-


Sunday, February 06, 2005

*-[Oscar the Grouch]`+
[We lift our hearts to Him]
[He is the reason that we sing]

No, having a grouchy title doesn't make one grouchy. Upset maybe, but not grouchy. Church was fantastically good. And I saw something... something nice... whee... and it tied in with the sermon too! OoOoh. God God God God God... is really the best.

On the other hand, there are other things. And when imaginary friends and soft toys don't comfort you... you're left alone in the middle of nowhere annoyed that you have no support source.. (esp since my support source is now causing the problem. aGh) And all I have is you God... Don't let me fall over.. I hate falling over. I don't wanna cry.. I wanna be happy with you. In you. Please... I've never felt happy in one day then wanted to cry the same day later in a minute. I've never changed moods this fast.. high one minute and the minute it hits me I just fall off a cliff. Don't don't don't don't don't. I so wanna cry now. No one here for me other than you God.. But I wish.. ah, I don't wish. I should be happy.

Masks. Facades.
Everything is such a farce sometimes.
WHERE ARE YOU WHEN I NEED YOU?
Do I really have to fall again?
To learn?
Why is it everytimes there's an up, there's a down.
I'm such a whinger.
Stop whinging Sara.
THERE'S A REASON FOR THIS.
Be quiet and take your piece like you have to.
Who said it's fair?
You just take what comes to you.
And if you accept it.
It's easier that way.
SACRIFICE PRAISE.
Do what you can while you can.
Make the most of being 17
on the 6th of Jan at 5.50 pm.
My supports have to go.
For a reason.
People aren't here for me.
For a reason.
I HAVE TO LEARN
to lean on God alone
and only him.

If only.
But too many if onlys make a mess.

Jaa

Saturday, February 05, 2005



YeAhh~ ManZai San FoReVer!!

Thursday, February 03, 2005



ArGh. My com is going mad! ArGggh! Noo. But this is my photoshop attempt. Hmms. =)

Wednesday, February 02, 2005



*-[My DrEsSeR. WhEeee]`+


*-[JeSuS~ It's JuSt tHe WaY YoU LoVe Me]`+



*-[Me AnD My ShAdOw]`+



*-[JoLa AnD LiTtLe MeLvIn]`+

Tuesday, February 01, 2005

*-[LoVed BeYoNd LoVeD...BlEsSeD BeYoNd BlEsSeD]`+

I was clearing my letters after devotion tonight, and I just had to come online to blog. Otherwise the words that are written here tonight might never pass the eyes of those it is intended for. And as for me, I am as usual (and also as Rachel reminds me), unashamed and unafraid to pen my feelings and emotions.

I really am loved beyond love and blessed beyond blessed. I can never say that I am unloved, can never say that God has left me behind... can never say that I am abandoned, because there's too much evidence in BLACK AND WHITE for me to deny that my God has sent so many people along my path to just bless me and love me. The amount of mail (snail mail) in my room defies all argument that I am alone. Forever more I know I KNOW that God's good and perfect plan is already in place. He's brought people from all over to just love me. And tonight.. I just want to reply some of the mails I may not have replied, or just bring them up for old time's sake and a good laugh with a warm fuzzy memory.

Charmaine C. You gave me 2 Cor 4: 7-10. I may be hard pressed but not crushed, perplexed but not in despair, persecuted; but not abandoned, struck down but not destroyed. Thank you so much dearie! You took the time to write this card for me when you were busy, remained a faithful friend and truly God uses you more than ever now, I believe!

Vene, your letter sits amongst the others and the color stands out to me. I am so encouraged and warmed by the fact that you've reached out to me.. and I wanna thank you so much for your friendship! You'll always be my Funky Beauuuteeefull friend! And yes, you are one of those people who have really showered me with love ya? I want you to know how much that means to me.

Eno, your fave color. The picture you left me with a year ago still is with me... and the warm friendship with a steady sound head on those shoulders of yours lends itself to be something wonderful. Take care okae, whatever you do? God is going to use you for so much more because he's hand picked you!

Lyanna.. you, yes you! You've brought so much life into my stay at your place, I'm forever grateful! even though I always tell you that you're annoying.. I must say I still love ya heaps ya! You gave me Ps 23, and it means a lot to me, all those notes you made for me. The large one on drawing paper.. the one on the day I left, I've kept them all girl, and I also see a shining light for God in you! Keep growing!

Michelle and Amanda Teo, you always Pm me online, esp you Amanda you sweetie! Thank you so much girls for the encouragement you've been to me just by being there for me, listening to me, talking to me (about whatever it is).. and ya, I won't forget helping with the balloons~ whee! Be good and do well in school ya! Happy Birthday Amanda!

Crystal! For homestaying me... and for listening to me and my rubbish, how I used to cry all the time but you never thought me weird or anything.. ya, how we hang out and do nothing much but it means so much to me ya? Cos we do productive nothingness. hahaaha.

Patsy and Kenneth you two are fantastic~ Just wanna say I was so encouraged when I left for Perth by your letter to me, you gave me prov 3:5-6. You knew how I'd feel being overseas, and you prepared me for it with so much encouragement! Thank you! [if u dun see the stars twinkle at night, it doesn't mean they're not there. They're just hidden behind the clouds and you will surely see them shine again.]

Avvy you lil DiVa! WhOoP! Love ya know? You've always been there for me, and you've always loved me heaps.. remember when we were young, those days were so funny. you were so small and I was such a brat... and guess what? I LOVE YOU TO PIECES COUSIN! And I want to thank you because you've been another one of those people who've really SHOWERED me with love and constant support, you RAWK RAWK RAWK! I know God is going to grow u more in Wesley so stay in there and keep the faith ok? MuAcKeRs.

Rachel Leong, special thanks to you.. and Sandra, cos both of you are so so small.. I've watched you grow up.. chased you around the hawker centre trying to feed you lunch... and ya, the letters you write me encourage me so! Thanks girls, you kept me up when I was down! And for the emails even now, Rachel..

LeUn SoOOok!!!! AahhhH! Do you remember being in Perth when I first started out? And you helped me with calc! I'll never forget that.. you were there to really really really really love me when I needed it! Hope you enjoy your emergency shifts in the wards... hheheeh. And yes, I know you're back in M'sia for CNY so have fun!!!!

Mel Leow.. hehehe. you're funky girlfren~~ haha! Yeah, for the cards you've sent and the love u sent along with them.. I love ya babe! Take care with the workload and the church stuff okae? yup, the LHMC youth ARE growing and God's hand is upon them.. continue in it cos u're gonna see results ya?

DwaYne for the Chrismas card.. hehehe. Thanks for the warmth and encouragement.. It's people like you who make the youth group a place where people feel loved and accepted.. I'll always come away knowing and remembering to love the people around me more. And I know God has great plans for ya. Can see.. haha.

Tai Yee, NickIe, Andy and Uncle Paul! Hahah, for all the birthdays you remembered and the encouragement nickie was to me on the phone when I was in Perth and was so down...love you guys! You send the coolest cards!!

LiQi.. for the Christmas card... yeah babe.. I've grown to love you, know?? and yeah, I cherish the love ya give me although I'm your 'love rival' hahahaha long live eno the lao po. =) Keep shining for him ya?

TIFF! Tiff Lam (or shd I say Lom)! Where is you la??? Somewhere in the states ha? SiGh. well girl, I grew up with ya too! In Wesley, I'll never forget the times we shared.. and thanks for the farewell card which I'll never forget because it's sincerely you! You've got so much for God he's going to honor it ya?

Jean Lin Jie for my Baptism Card with 1 cor 6:11 in it. It means a lot.. and for the flute advice too!

Cheryl Ho.. .haha, thanks dearie for my farewell letter... think u remember how I cried like mad in service.. haha miss u mah! heheehe. You really encouraged me in that letter.. reminded me that there's MORE THEN THIS cos our God is a great God. Thank you so much!!!

Melvin err Melvin.. hhahah. Never forget Sly. Or little melvin ya? he's on my bed.. looks a little dizzy, but very alive. I wanna thank ya for the CONSTANT support you've been, on MSN in person, in letters. The most memorable card was the one on the day I left (the only one la, haha) and u gave it to me with the funny monkey and told me that I was a blessing. Thank you tremendously for the encouragement you ALWAYS are.. yeah, stay in touch with Ms Wong ok?

Daph Daph DaPhNE and ChaD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I LOVE U MUCH MUCH MANY! haha. Yeah, for the wonderful journal and the wise words I won't forget... for the love and acceptance you've showered! Most importantly for the support you've been, the time you've taken out of your busy schedule for me, whether it's skyping, MSNing, SMSing... haha, we'll have many more ice cream on cold stones to come ok? yes I shall be your nanny too! Won't forget God using you in my life to speak to me! Thank you!!

And Joshie~ For the many letters you've written, especially the well worded card that hit the nail on the head when I was down.. yeah... so many things laa.. Be strong in this time of change ok? It's a great thing to have happen even though it may not feel so! haha... yeah, for the enthusiasm you have for Jesus, for your stand and also, for sharing the talents he's given you in guitaring with me!!! YeAh, thank you for being there, for sharing, and for encouraging me! (notice this is in GREEN)

Timmy for the bro you've been, the birthday letter was good fun! Thanks for letting me yell, complain, sing, have fun, rejoice and do silly things with ya! You have God given wisdom, and discernment which he wants to use! Don't want to say too much at this point, except for STARDI ARH! STARDI HARD. Yeah.

Joanne Darling, I'm so glad you're doing well, esp with ZX, hehehehehe. Yeaah... hey babe, keep the faith ya? Wish I could have spent more time with ya in SG. And you know what? I never told you that your creativity and artistic taste is really wonderful! And that you're really humourous, and cute! I love you so much and I'm so glad you're going to church with ZX hehehehe. May you two be richly blessed and better send me a wedding invite if it's God's will ya. No, dun send me one. I want to be bridesmaid!!!!!!

Lydia you babe. This is not sufficent to tell you how much you mean to me and yet I try. Your friendship has been valuable beyond valuable ok! WORDS cannot explain what you mean to me, your love for me poured out to me from God's own store of love! I love you like my own sister and I rejoice in your freedom which I want you to continue to claim ok? Ya, I love to see you growing in the Lord so so much and just rocking on for him! We both know, he's the one! Who reached out and picked us up and out of our iniquity. You're not the only one who'd have died of loneliness at camp. without you there, I would too. I love that automatic knowing of when to get up and go with ya.. it's like a thing the manzai san have, know? for all the time we've spent together, there's so much more to discover. I read your old letter dearie darling, and then I read the recent one... and there's SUCH a difference in you! HuRrAy and ReJoIcE!!!! Yaa, remember our house ok?? We shall call it in our house, hahaha. Still missing you heaps.. Was so so proud when you said that you'd rather be in church than study know.. That God's put such a calling and purpose in your heart! That just makes me all happy and jumpy inside...I love you much many much much...

To my dearest Phishie... I wuv you too!!! You've found me changed this past trip, and I know this to be true, and yet I love you just the same! It doesn't matter what's happened, because this is how our relationship grows and changes to adapt... And if it took that much for us to learn how to better love and understand each other then so be it! I love you! And it's the quirks you have that crack me up and make my day... like blobbus greenus! Your cuteness and hamster ladyness will always remain fond in my heart... and I want to remind you of a red and black letter you wrote to me on foolscap... and you were asking how is it that we were all so close after so long.. that in sec school it was just so easy to adjust and have new friends. Do you remember? Well I asked the same question for a long time, and I found the answer in another letter. It was that "People come along our way but good friends are hard to find. Nevertheless you needn't look, need you, Sara? Because you have the Manzai San." (Paraphrased) and That's so true. I have the Manzai San. You've been so faithful as a friend, Rach. Thanks for being a GREAT friend! And I mean that. I love ya heaps!

And to Mum and Dad, your letters made me cry the most because out of all these wonderful people I know you love me best. You put up with so much in me and you love me anyway. I'll always keep those letters, because your love for me is so simple and pure, yet I cannot imagine loving anyone the way you love me... Parents! You guys are really God's blessing to have, especially in Australia! Hehehe. I know you love me unconditionally and that is God's love to me through you! Love you two!!!

SiGh... that ends the LONG LONG blog.. And if you're not mentioned.. I'm thinking of you right now and feeling bad, so smile ok? (MaNdY~ Jon Ho~DeBs~ Jon Chee~ Shu~Sotong~Caro~CARO!!!!!) hehehe. I love y'all anyway. =) Yaa... not enuf time, not enuf space la.. sowwie...

Oyasumi, it's early in the morning.. *yawn*